I am a quiet person. I sit in corners, I'm happy to watch. I don't say everything I feel, I will stand at the back quite happily. My biggest fear is public speaking. I get nervous when I am in a large group of people and I have to speak. I'm such a different person around my friends, when I feel comfortable, I can chirp in and relax. But people I don't know, and in large amounts? It freaks me out.
I have a presentation to give in a week. I am nervous already. I know my voice always gives me away. I start shaking and mumbling. I get embarrassed, and I stress out and feel worried. There is no reason. I wish I wasn't such a worrier, I wish I could just be calm and not even care about it. I know that I really shouldn't. I say to myself that it doesn't matter. It's not life or death or anything like that. But when I am up there standing in front of a large group of people, I am a massive wreck. I am an introvert. I will speak when I have something to say, but I won't say it if I don't need to. I don't like putting my hand up in class, or asking questions. I'm quite content with everyone else doing that. I don't like the idea that everyone will be looking, and paying attention to me. It gets my heart racing. Even showing work in a tutorial gets me going.
I have no confidence. And you know what? I have totally gone in to the wrong career for that. Being a graphic designer will involve face to face meetings with people I dont know. Presenting a pitch to a group of strangers. Talking about my ideas with confidence, not shaking with nerves. When I think about these things, I wonder what the hell I have got myself in to. I can't imagine doing that. I'm a writer, I guess. I don't like talking on the phone. Email, yes please. Face to face? I don't think so.
I need to work on this. I feel like my confidence has grown in the past year. Not enough, but still a bit. I can do it. I need to try and remember to calm down. I can say to myself not to worry and just relax. But just by saying that, it doesn't make it happen. I wish I could really believe it. It's hindrance. But I'm going to work on it.
Anyone got any advice? How do you build up confidence? Did you use to be shy? How did you overcome the barriers?