My little break from blogging has been uneventful, but it's made me think about what I want. What this blog is for, why I want to keep it. But it's also made me ask, why do I have one, what's it for? I am seeing so many bloggers, particularly in recent times, struggling with it. The blogging atmosphere seems to have gone slightly downhill, and this is so sad. Surely blogging should be about sharing the love, uplifiting comments, and inspiring posts, but recently it seems like the bad aspects of blogging outweigh the positive. Luckily for me, I dont have any problems with my blog, be it from anons or whatnot, only myself! I think it's fair to say that we all have blogging blocks. I have been asking myself too often what is this for? I'm not really a fashion blogger, and I don't feel comfortable just posting weekly roundups all the time. I don't like the fact that it seems all I ever post are the weekly things. And sometimes I only do that because I feel I have to keep it up, you know? But then I realised, this is about me. Without meaning to sound self involved or up myself, this blog is for me. It should make me happy, I shouldnt worry about what I post, or what I think other people think of it. I mean, if they love what i love, and what I post, that is so so great. And it is lovely to know that there are people out there who take the time to comment, and read what I have written. I really do love you all!
But if blogging is making me unhappy, then clearly something needs to be done. Right? I have always wanted my blog to inspire, and I know what I have just written, that it is about me, it seems like a contradiction. But wanting to inspire people is who I am. I want to inspire people with art, with photos, with words. And I also want this blog to be about my life. My memory is so awful, and one the things I want this blog to be is a little place on the internet where I can write and post what I want. I shouldn't have to worry what other people think, because this is mine, isn't that what websites are all about? I am going to post things that make me smile. My memories, things that I won't be able to remember in years, maybe even months to come. If I document it, then it's like an online journal. And the greatest thing is, it might inspire others to do the same. I have fallen out of love with blogging, but writing that, right there, that made my heart smile a little bit. That is what I want. I want to write down the memories before I forget. I want to write down how I felt at that exact moment in time, what I did at the weekend, what made me smile. Because it's the mundane things in life we forget, and we take for granted. But maybe, years from now, I can read back through my blog and it will make me smile.
This is going to be my diary. Come along for the ride, if you want. :)
Love to you all,